I went for my ultrasound and biopsy on Wednesday, May 13th. I went with the thought in mind that it was just scar tissue. I left the hospital more scared than ever. Without going into detail because that day turned out to be very emotional for me and I am not confident that I can remember exactly was said, I was told that the mass measured approximately 1.9cm by 2cm and looked suspicious for a breast cancer recurrence.
I am very happy to announce that on Friday I received a call from my oncologist informing me that the area was a combination of scar tissue and fat necrosis. Nothing to worry about!!! If the lump becomes bothersome I can have it removed. I do not wish to have it removed since my body appears to really like forming scar tissue and knowing my luck it would be replaced with an even larger amount!!!
My oncologist said that they will check it periodically to make sure that nothing has changed.
I cannot even begin to explain how I felt when the radiologist who did the biopsy informed me that she was worried that this was a recurrence. Life stops. I felt like I couldn’t breathe, as if something was sitting on my chest. I had multiple thoughts going through my head… “I can’t tell my family this again” “What will Nick do?” “How are my kids going to handle this again???” “I can’t bear to see my moms face if I have to tell her the cancer has returned” “Why me?” “Life is so unfair” So many thoughts and so many emotions rushing in all at once. The rest of the day was a blur as I tried to process everything.
I am beyond happy that I can now truly enjoy my sons high school graduation next week without this dark cloud hanging over me (all of us). I am hugging my husband, children, and mom a little tighter, and telling them that I love them every day.