NO GOOD ROTTEN DAY
Today has not been a day that I am proud of. Maybe some of you who have been following my blog remember that at one point I felt that there was something wrong with me because I felt numb to the whole thing? Well, the emotions have hit me full force. I don’t know if it is just the emotions of dealing with the fact that I have breast cancer, or the fact that my chemo has shut down my ovaries and made me into a raging post-menopausal lunatic.
I have yelled at Nick. I have yelled at Domenic until we were both crying. I have yelled at Miss Ladybug. She won’t even sit with me tonight. I went off like a lunatic in front of my mom this afternoon. Crying one minute and screaming the next.
I just want my life to be normal again. I want to go in and hug my son right now and tell him how sorry I am. But right now the best thing is to probably give him his space and stay away.
I don’t know how my family has put up with me today. I should be thankful that they haven’t made me go sleep in the garage tonight.